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Posted: January 4, 2012 in Teachable Moment

Hello Blogosphere!

I cannot believe it’s been two whole months since the last time I was able to write but don’t worry I’m still here… just a little taken over by life is all. Speaking of life, today is actually the best day of my life because it was on this day nine years ago that I married my true love and became Mrs. Wheeler Sexton.  Every year the reality of this blessing overwhelms my heart and I begin to contemplate, what in the world did I do to deserve such a beautiful thing as marriage to such a wonderful man as Wheeler? The answer to that question is nothing… I don’t actually deserve to be loved at all, much less so richly and unconditionally as my husband loves me… So why? The only sufficient answer is God’s mercy… I think sometimes in life we tend to credit ourselves with the good things that happen to us and blame God for the bad things that happen to us… for instance if we have money in the bank, we think that its because we were diligent and went to school and got a good job… which those things are good and I’m not knocking diligence or school, but the reality is that God gave us the diligence, He provided the opportunity to go to school and the fact is that neither of those things guarantee a good job but if He so chooses He blesses us with that too.  This perspective is so important, otherwise we might mistake our marriages or our fortunate circumstances as instruments for our glory instead of His.

So I guess the point is that the question “What did I do to deserve this?” is a question based in a flawed view of reality… it seems the better response is “I could never do enough in this life to deserve something as rare and beautiful as being deeply loved by a good man but God has given this gift to me nonetheless… What am I to do with it so He is glorified?” To be honest, this is a hard perspective to function in, because if there is nothing that I did to deserve what I have then ultimately I can never do enough to keep it, so out of fear I find myself trying to find something I did to deserve it so I can tell myself that as long as I keep doing these things, I will never loose the blessings that I have. But that isn’t true is it? I could be the perfect wife and a terrible accident could happen tomorrow and I could lose the husband I cherish so deeply.  Please don’t misunderstand, I am not saying that what we do does not matter… I believe God gives us knowledge, gifts and opportunities and He commands us to be good stewards of those things but being a good steward does not earn God’s blessing it is what allows us to really enjoy God’s blessings and it is our enjoyment of Him that brings Him glory.

So the point of my very long exposition is this… I genuinely enjoy being married to Wheeler and I am immensely thankful for God’s mercy in granting us such a wonderful nine years…  I didn’t do anything to earn it but I pray with all my heart that I will be a good steward of this most precious gift no matter what life brings and if it is His will, I hope I get to glorify Him by enjoying 75 or even 100 years of marriage… even though I will be incredibly old 🙂