Clarity

Posted: November 29, 2012 in Personal Moment, Uncategorized
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Have you ever begged God for clarity on a decision, gotten it and then thought “Wow, that’s not exactly what I thought it would be.”? Today was that day for me.

Yesterday, after being told another lie by our builder, I couldn’t help but feel like we were holding on too tight; it was time for something to happen that would take the pressure off of our families and give us some perspective. So I went home and begged God for clarity. Then I sent Wheeler an e-mail explaining my feelings.  He soon texted me back saying he felt the same thing and we began to discuss options. We looked into staying in an extended stay hotel, which the builder had offered to pay for, but after looking at it for about 5 seconds we knew that was absolutely out of the question.  So then we began re-examining the research we had done on apartments a few weeks ago and decided to follow up with the one we had liked the best.

I called to find out that they had a promotional rate that would make a 3 month lease doable for us and they had the exact floor plan we wanted available for move-in this weekend, but we would need to make a decision soon. This was a good option but we were still struggling with all the unknown variables, the logistics of moving so quickly and the effect the sudden change might have on the girls. So we prayed about it, discussed it with family and decided to sleep on it. This morning we got up feeling like we should go ahead with the apartments but we continued to ask God for clarity. At 9:00am we received a call from the builder confirming our concerns about the schedule for the house. At a little after 9:00 we spoke to our realtor who advised us to go forward with the apartment. At 9:30am we signed the paperwork and will be moving in this Saturday on December 1st.

Amazingly, God gave us the clarity we needed in less than 24 hours, but it wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be. Secretly, I wanted clarity that said we would move into our house before Christmas. However, that’s not what happened and to be honest I feel strangely ok with it. We have been so tightly wound for the last 12 months over this house and God in His wisdom is giving us a chance to let go of something that was His in the first place. We have not withdrawn our contract from the house at this point and who knows what will happen after the first of the year but here’s what I do know… God will give us clarity just in time for us to need it and even if the direction is a surprise, we can rest in His perfect provision that has sustained us thus far.

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